The Last of the Summer Wine.

I sat outside at 8 o’clock.

I noticed that the sun had stopped.

Directing light between the trees

Of 31 and 33.

I sat outside at 9 o’clock.

I noticed that the smoke had stopped.

From the once used, gas barbecue.

Burnt burger buns at 32.

I sat outside at 10 o’clock.

I noticed that the noise had stopped.

The barking dog and slamming gate.

The screaming kids at 28.

I moved inside at 11 o’clock.

I noticed that the music hadn’t stopped.

The snap of cans the clink of wine.

The high pitched ladies at 29.

I was still awake at 12 o’clock.

I noticed that the crying had stopped.

The angry slam of a taxi door.

No fond farewell from those at 34

First Dates.

Hey Hey

Where are you from? The face says London but I could be wrong.

Who me? Yeah, I’m local mate, with a voice that screams council estate.

Hey Hey

Where you from? The clothes say Rome but I could be wrong.

Do you dine at Frankie B? Then you could be the one for me.

Get your shoes, from the Boo Hoos?

Get your clothes, from the Asos.

Drink in the Spoons, down the town.

Get that glow, from Tan-n-Go.

Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey.

Hey Hey, where you from? The perfumes Paris but I could be wrong.

Listening to you on our First date with a voice that screams council estate.

Hey Hey, What are you knocking back?

A diet coke with a shot of Jack.

And a bag of crisps then you can kiss. My greasy,pink,salty,lips.

Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey.

Get your shoes, from the Boo Hoos?

Get your clothes, from Asos.

Drink in the Spoons, down the town.

Get that glow, from Tan-n-Go.

Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey. Hey Hey Hey Hey Hey.

The White Horse

It doesn’t eat or move its feet,

Or swish it’s tail, towards Kildale.

It’s never ridden but sometimes hidden.

White horse. We’re right on course.

314ft long, under half a furlong.

For you racing types, no silks or stripes.

228ft high with a big green eye.

Please don’t walk. Keep off the chalk.

Truth be told, if I may be bold.

Not often known, but it’s all limestone.

To be enlightening, the horse needs whitening.

Here’s a tip, they use chalk chip.

I’m driving North, looking for the horse.

A19 and the Mare is seen.

A familiar landmark, except when dark.

White horse of stone. I’m nearly home.

Northern Skies

Under Northern Skies, that was where you hypnotised.Turned me into a love sick fool. A slave to love your only rule.

Reflected in your eyes. The stars of Northern Skies.

Under Northern Skies.Against a backdrop so Industrialised. We gently kissed with greasy lips.Forgot about our fish chips.

Reflecting in your eyes. The stars of Northern Skies.

Romances can start anywhere. So let’s begin our love affair. From far corners of distant lands. Beneath the pier on Saltburn Sands.

Under northern skies. I was totally mesmerised. I couldn’t take my eyes of you. I hope you felt the same way too.

Reflected in your eyes. The stars of Northern skies.

Kiss me and I feel hopeless.Nervous and completely useless. Feel the rising and the fall. Like a long time listeners first time call.

Reflected in your eyes. The stars of Northern Skies.

Take That

Take that you bitch”. 

These are the first words that I had ever heard from the lady from Room 8B. We had passed many times before on the way to the dining hall but never spoke. Her name was Mary Morgan and she came with a reputation.

I lived in Room 8F and had to pass her door at least three times a day. Today was different. She was bent over the bed of Enid in Room 8D. The door was slightly open as I passed and as I stared into the room Mary span round quickly and said “What the fuck are you looking at?” As I have mentioned earlier Mary came with a reputation. As a 76 year old lady this was some reputation. She pointed at a chair in the room and said “Sit there and keep quiet” I did as I was told.

Mary turned back towards the bed and I noticed that she was trying to put an earring into Enid’s ear. The other thing that struck me was that there was a syringe on the bed.

Mary turned to me again and said “If you don’t want to end up like this you need to keep your mouth shut and say nothing” 

Enid looked as though she wouldn’t be joining us for dinner later. 

I was told that Mary would come and see me later in my room after dinner.

To give you a little more information Mary was a lady who had lived a tough life.Three marriages and six children and a liking for alcohol and drugs. She had outlived two of her husbands and three of her children. Each relationship had been abusive and she had served time at her majesty’s pleasure for drug dealing. Mary had never worked for a living but she had worked harder than most to keep living.

My name is Stephen Bell and my circumstances are different from Mary’s although the one thing we have in common is that we were both sad and unhappy people.

I was a barrister, married to a fine lady who was my first love. We didn’t have children but enjoyed the lifestyle that both of our salaries could easily afford. Unfortunately I had an affair with a much younger secretary who became pregnant and in turn my life changed forever.

My new wife was very demanding and the three children that we raised wanted for nothing. It was when I reached my Sixtieth birthday that I noticed I was forgetting more than I was remembering. With two children still at university I couldn’t afford to retire and carried on in my profession. 

There are now people suffering in prison for my inadequacies in the courtroom which is haunt me when I try to sleep. I assume there are many more people in a similar positions to myself.

My second family wanted me to keep on practising and to keep them in the same financial circumstances to which they had been accustomed to. When they finally realised this wasn’t going to be possible the last thing they wanted was to spend their inheritance money on care home fees. Instead they hired a home help lady from an agency who would visit me three days a week, while my family ignored me and continued on with their own lives.

I wasn’t totally dependent on June who was my lovely care lady but I certainly was unhappy with the way my family were treating me. I made a call to a friend who was a doctor and exaggerated my condition in such a way that he recommended that I should be placed in care. This meant leaving my old victorian house with the knowledge that my assets would be spent on my own care and not on others.

Mary walked straight into Room 8F after dinner without knocking. She said “There’s a doctor at Enid’s and no doubt the doctor will be signing a death certificate and the certificate will state Natural Causes”. Although the way she died certainly wasn’t natural.

I asked “did you kill her?”

“Of course I did, nobody pushes in front of me in the dinner queue” said Mary who then started to laugh.I felt the need to get out of the room and stood up as quick as I could.Mary got to the door before me and raised her hand up and placed it on my chest. “Enid was a killer, she murdered her husband and two children and Enid has now paid for her sins. In her other hand Mary had a newspaper which she handed to me. There were pictures of Enid. One from the 70’s and one from 2004. The first described a very disturbing court case. The second was from a local paper where residents from an estate had complained about a killer being released and housed locally. The picture was grainy but I was on no doubt that this was Enid.

Mary stared directly into my eyes and said “ are you with me” ? If you are with me, then we have work to do. If you have a problem then I need to know.

In 2 years time Mary would die through national causes and I wouldn’t be far behind. In this short space of time we would both be responsible for another four deaths. The deaths of people who deserved to die but which gave me and Mary a reason to keep living for as long as possible.

If you want to know how these people died then I would take you back to the first murder scene at Room 8D.

As a teenager Mary was responsible for selling drugs to many people to allow her to look after her own children even though two of her own children had later died from a drug overdose.

She became clean while in prison but thought that she was going to hell anyway. For Mary this was a way of contrition.

Mary would save her own medication for a week and make a solution.She would put the solution into a syringe and visit her target. She would wait until the person was asleep and remove their earring and inject the solution into the cavity and then replace the earring. 

It would be the case that most doctors wouldn’t spend too much time considering the cause and death of a person at a care home. 

Foot Note.

Although abused by men for most of her life the other cases we would investigate were all women.

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A soldier’s tale.

So how can I relax, i’ve tried.

Listening to your West coast on my East side.

Your soul music only brings me pain.

They send us home and call us back again.

We wear the clothes, take needles and pills.

Letters home tell of thrills and spills.

The suntan oil won’t save our skin.

Prayers won’t stop the fear within.

These times reflect the things we do.

No shame on me and no shame one you.

Now we go to save the world.

The weathers so hot wish I wasn’t here.

No swimming pools just lots of sand.

Turning over stones in a foreign land.

Dreaming of green fields were we would flock.

Instead we empty the sands out of our socks.

Then watch as grains get blown away.

From East to West and back again.

These times reflect the things we do.

No shame on me and no shame on you.

Show an open hand not an angry fist.

Search for signs that we might have missed.

Hearing bullets squeal and missiles moan.

I close my eyes and dream of home.

Weekenders.

I threw back the curtains quickly.

The sunlight made me feel sickly.

So I closed them even quicker.

And tasted every drop of the liquor.

That I had drank the night before.

While dancing on some disco floor.

In a place that I can’t remember.

That wasn’t very clever.

Now I can hear my brain beating.

But I don’t feel too much like eating.

Though the last food that I tasted.

Came back up and was wasted.

So I sleep another hour.

Promised myself a hot shower.

But I rose and still felt dead.

So fell back into my sweaty bed.

Where I stayed until Monday.

Promised i’d be back the next day.

When I threw back the curtains quickly.

The guilt made me feel sickly.

Sea Town Blues.

Walking barefoot among the chip bags,

coke cans and discarded food.

Are hot and sweaty people

In a not so pretty mood

Seagulls swoop in silently

For succulent sausage rolls

In the distance there’s a knock on wood

Old aged pensioners playing bowls

Argumentative couples abandon cars.

In private parking spaces.

Then ignore the window tapping from elderly angry faces.

Shops sell fish and chips on a Sunday

Each one has a queue.


Where fat ladies stand dressed in leggings, black bras and a tattoo.


Their kids all have skinheads and want ice cream and lemonade


Then they rush across, the busy road towards the seedy loud arcades.

A noisy gang are singing , dressed in unfavourable football tops.


Now its kicking off so early outside the pubs and kebab shops.


The sea front is fluctuating and the only things standing still.


Are a hot and tired Pitbull and the turbines on the hill.

Dark dirty clouds appear and the sands prepare for rain.


Soon the town is deserted and the people have all gone home again.


They will all be back tomorrow when the town has been swept clean.


With their lager cans, the sun tan fans,

Splash red skin with sun tan cream

Poet and I Know It’ Virtual Poetry Group Stockton on Tees Library.

Silence

Silence.

Nothing but silence.

A contradiction once spoken.

Silence.

Someone said “silence.”.

Now the silence is broken.

Some Days.

Some days it feels, you have jets on your heels.

That the feeling will last forever.

Then some days you find, that your laces are tied.

Your laces are tied together.

Some days you find, that your tongue gets tied.

Words are shy and won’t be spoken.

Some days words flow, like the sea to the shore.

In waves the barriers are broken.

Some days it seems, your plans are just dreams.

Which disappear when they are awoken .

Some days your fears, outweigh your ideas.

Which lie in silence, in bits, and broken.

Somedays is somedays, not all days and always.

There’s always somebody smiling.

There’s always laughter, occasional happy ever after.

But be aware of the the fake and beguiling .